I guess I was just so mad the other day because I am looking toward the end of this and surgery seems to push things back. I would really like to go back to work before I forget what exactly it was I do there. My plan was to start radiation and then go back to work.
I am still waiting to hear from the doctors office to find out when it will be. I will call Monday just to make sure that I did not forget to give them one of my phone number changes.
I am feeling good. I think the chemo is finally leaving me. I still nap everyday, but I actually went to the movies with my boys yesterday. We saw Paul Blart Mall Cop. It was not as bad as I expected it would be. After the movie I had to take them to dinner. They are trying to make me broke!
Now I have to go play taxi driver. Dan is at a friends and Joe is at the mall. I hope I remember how to drive at night. It has been so long since I have done so. With me luck! I guess I better take off my "Fuck Cancer" hat and find my wig.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Boy am I Pissed
There is no other way to say it, just pissed! I need to have surgery again! Some time next week. I guess I should have realized this when my doctors both said that I need to go back and see the surgeon. Silly me, I thought that I was just going to go there and he would say it was nothing. But no... he did not know what the weird thing growing from my lumpectomy scar is. Could just be scar tissue, or worst is it could be a cancer cell that got lost during surgery??? With all the friggen Chemo they gave me it better be a dead cancer cell if it is one.
Anyway, it should be next Wednesday or Friday, they will let me know once they check with the hospital. He said it is done under local anesthesia and it is quick. But that is what they said when I had the medi-port put in and I in the hospital forever and was wiped out for days. Did I ever say that they told me that they leave the port in for between a year to two, just in case of a reassurance! Such optimism. No really, the hard plastic thing by my collar bone, that feels like a leggo does not bother me at all!
I also went to the radiloogist today. She said that I now can't start radiation or even have the maping done, until after the surgery. Did I mention that I am pissed! I am going to stop writing now cause there is nothing else to say today!
Anyway, it should be next Wednesday or Friday, they will let me know once they check with the hospital. He said it is done under local anesthesia and it is quick. But that is what they said when I had the medi-port put in and I in the hospital forever and was wiped out for days. Did I ever say that they told me that they leave the port in for between a year to two, just in case of a reassurance! Such optimism. No really, the hard plastic thing by my collar bone, that feels like a leggo does not bother me at all!
I also went to the radiloogist today. She said that I now can't start radiation or even have the maping done, until after the surgery. Did I mention that I am pissed! I am going to stop writing now cause there is nothing else to say today!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Appointments Made
I think I got everything straight from my doctors visits. I am going Thursday for a CAT scan so they can map my body for radiation. Monday I am going for my chest x-ray and for the sonogram. I, along with my mom and convinced they keep sending me for these tests so they can protect themselves if anything ever goes wrong. Next Wednesday I finally go to see about this cough. It's only bothering me since Christmas.
Okay enough of that. I am feeling good. Still napping, but better. I have been very busy with my puzzles. I actually finished two more since Saturday. I have been trying work on my bills/forms. I really need to win the lottery now. I really should play if I want to win?
I also ordered a henna tattoo ink kit for my eyebrows. I really have about 4 hairs above my right eye and 12 on my left. It looks really funny. I got some makeup stuff, but I tend to rub that off when I am scratching from my itchy wig. The henna lasts for at least 5 days. I thought this was a great idea when I was ordering, but now I am thinking, what if I mess up. I will have to have funky weird brows for 5 days! I know I just wont leave the house if I mess up. Mom was also interested, so I will practice on her first.
Today I am sitting her watching the snow. I was like the seniors and ate lunch at 11:15. Speaking of the seniors, they wanted me to go to he movies with them. I said no, last time I did that I crashed Dads car. By the way, the insurance company did say I was not at fault! No really, I did not go because I just was not into going out.
Well I must go, I have two phone calls to make and an email to send before I nap. Wait! I almost forgot to say they most important thing; I am growing hair on my head. It is very light, blond/grey and like peach fuzz, but it is GROWING! Yeah!
Okay enough of that. I am feeling good. Still napping, but better. I have been very busy with my puzzles. I actually finished two more since Saturday. I have been trying work on my bills/forms. I really need to win the lottery now. I really should play if I want to win?
I also ordered a henna tattoo ink kit for my eyebrows. I really have about 4 hairs above my right eye and 12 on my left. It looks really funny. I got some makeup stuff, but I tend to rub that off when I am scratching from my itchy wig. The henna lasts for at least 5 days. I thought this was a great idea when I was ordering, but now I am thinking, what if I mess up. I will have to have funky weird brows for 5 days! I know I just wont leave the house if I mess up. Mom was also interested, so I will practice on her first.
Today I am sitting her watching the snow. I was like the seniors and ate lunch at 11:15. Speaking of the seniors, they wanted me to go to he movies with them. I said no, last time I did that I crashed Dads car. By the way, the insurance company did say I was not at fault! No really, I did not go because I just was not into going out.
Well I must go, I have two phone calls to make and an email to send before I nap. Wait! I almost forgot to say they most important thing; I am growing hair on my head. It is very light, blond/grey and like peach fuzz, but it is GROWING! Yeah!
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