Boy am I Pissed

There is no other way to say it, just pissed! I need to have surgery again! Some time next week. I guess I should have realized this when my doctors both said that I need to go back and see the surgeon. Silly me, I thought that I was just going to go there and he would say it was nothing. But no... he did not know what the weird thing growing from my lumpectomy scar is. Could just be scar tissue, or worst is it could be a cancer cell that got lost during surgery??? With all the friggen Chemo they gave me it better be a dead cancer cell if it is one.

Anyway, it should be next Wednesday or Friday, they will let me know once they check with the hospital. He said it is done under local anesthesia and it is quick. But that is what they said when I had the medi-port put in and I in the hospital forever and was wiped out for days. Did I ever say that they told me that they leave the port in for between a year to two, just in case of a reassurance! Such optimism. No really, the hard plastic thing by my collar bone, that feels like a leggo does not bother me at all!

I also went to the radiloogist today. She said that I now can't start radiation or even have the maping done, until after the surgery. Did I mention that I am pissed! I am going to stop writing now cause there is nothing else to say today!