Relay for Life was Great

Well, thanks to my family and friends I raised over $600. myself this year. I hear that my team may have raised over $6000. Speaking of my team, I won the liquor basket again this year. They actually had two, and I was relieved that I did not win the bigger one. People would really hate me if I won that one for the second year in a row. But I did buy my share of chances for both, and many other things at the Relay. It was such a great day. The survivor lap was amazing, did it while holding hands with my fellow group members who are also survivors.

I went for my three month check up,all is good but my doctor said I should go for both an MRI and a mammogram before my next visit. That shit just scares me. I know they are just being cautious, but....it still make me go hmmmm.

My birthday is this week, I will be 45. Not sure how I feel about that. I do know I need to get myself a present, not sure if I want camera, a new laptop or another cat. I really want to become the crazy cat lady before I am 50. Maybe I will just foster one for a while. I do not have money to do any of these things, and right now I should be finding my papers so I can get my hospital bill reduced, but fuck it. Life's too short to worry. Must get moving....more updates soon.

Relay for Life is Tomorrow

I am so excited. I can't wait to go. It seems like yesterday I was there doing the survivor lap as a ten month survivor. It was so emotional, I get all choked up just thinking about it. Since last year I have really gotten involved with my support group. It will be nice knowing more people there. I am going to be selling some "Fuck Cancer" bracelets while I am there. I plan on winning lots of stuff from all the raffles.

In the past year I have lost two friends to cancer. Two friends that I knew from years ago,  but became friends with because of  cancer. So it sucks. One was Tony, a former coworker from Lipton. We became email buddies while going through treatments at the same time. The other was Phil, who happened to be my favorite professor in college. I met him at the support group. Also today I heard that one of the other mom's I knew from Cub Scouts just passed away from cancer. So that is why I have to get involved and help raise money so they will someday find a cure.

I must say that I along with my other pen pal Sophia are doing fine. Sophia and met also while undergoing breast cancer treatment. My friends in my support group are wonderful and it is good to hear what they have been through and what I am still dealing with are normal. Like the pain that I am having right now in my boob. It's going to rain and scars hurt when it is going to rain. I still can't believe I have four scars from one tumor. There is the tumor one, the one from the surgery drain, the one from where they removed my lymph nodes, my port. Wait that is actually two. One to put in and one to take it out. Boy does that feel good to be out.

I did finally get my genetic test results back. I do not carry the cancer gene. Which is a great thing! Must have been the smoking!

I must wrap this up now, I need to go find my survivor pin and sash, make a basket and some signs.

Time just flies when life is back to normal

To anyone who just saw this blog for the first time, don't go to the beginning unless you have hours to spend reading! I was trying to write every few days while going through treatment so I could update my friends and family. Because I could not talk about it! Now I like to go back to read to remember what I went through.

Life itself is back to normal, but there is never a day when I don't think of cancer. Whether it is looking at one of my four scars, feeling a pain, or just thinking of my new support group friends, there is never a day when I don't think about it. Four scars, for a lumpectomy, yes, one for the lump, drain, lymph nodes and port. The port has been out for a few months now and funny my shoulder pain went away. After it heals, I am going to get a cool tattoo in it's place. Or near it cause I don't think they will go over a scar.

My life is wonderful. My boys are the most amazing thing ever. Dan grows taller and his voice gets deeper everyday. Joe drives all over and most days picks Dan up after school. I worry about Dan and those friends of Joe's who are girls, cause it seems that Dan has a thing for older women! Joe has a new girlfriend every few days! I feel old! On Monday, Joe is going to start training at Shoprite. Hopefully he will like this job. Now he needs money for gas  and cigarettes (let's not even go there) so there is some motivation.

I did go take a test to see if I carry the Braca (cancer) gene. I am just waiting for the results. If yes, they may encourage me to have my ovaries removed. Whatever!!! I firgured it would be good for the boys to know if their genes are bad, and what is another three hundred dollars out of my pocket. I don't think I will ever finish paying off these doctors, but what can I do about it, at least I am working and have insurance.

Work is work, it could be better, but then it could also be a lot worse. Maybe one day I can retire and then volunteer with animals! I love going to play with the cats on Tuesdays. Love my furry babies at home too. Just had to take Chip to the vet yesterday, more money I don't have! He is okay, had a problem with his anal gland! Crazy shit, I didn't even know there could be a problem!

Tonight we are going to dinner for Aunt Chubby's birthday, then back to my parents for cake. Love my family! I don't think there is any more for me to write..... so until next time.

Disney was so Good!

The boys and I had a great time. We went for 5 days plus two for traveling. We went to Epcot twice, Hollywood studios, The Magic Kingdom and Animal Kingdom. I think when I go again I will pass on Animal Kingdom. We had to go there because Dan wanted to eat in the Rain Forest Cafe and figured since we were there we would do the park. Since I planned this trip so late I could only get breakfast reservations, so we were done with the park by 2. After that we went to play Fantasia Mini Golf and then to the local flea markets.

Our dinners started out really good the first night we ate in the Irish Pub in Downtown Disney, night two was Benihana, then my all time favorite Cracker Barrel, Germany in Epcot and the last night we went all out and ate at the Waffle House (poor white trash)! LOL. The first one we went to was in such a desolate area, I wouldn't stay, so we  used the GPS to find another.

The whole trip was amazing, even Joe had fun! One night he stayed up until 4am texting some girl, and was quite tired the next day, so I think he quickly figured out he needed sleep. Me on the other hand had to stop three days in a row at the drug store to get something to put on my blisters on my feet! Dan, well he was Dan happy all the time!. They even shared a room and didn't mind. We rented a condo that had two bedrooms,. mine had a jacuzzi tub that came in very handy at the end of our long days.

The night we stayed for the fireworks at Epcot was terrific!  We stood there, the three of us together and I started thinking of how beautiful the show and music was and how I was so lucky to have such great kids and to be alive and well, that I just started crying. They asked if I was happy and the just hugged me and decided I was crazy!

The last two days here have been very snowy. I think we got about 16 inches in total. It is crazy. I an ready to go back to Florida. Can't believe I was complaining that it was cold when we first got there 50's would be great here how! The last two days in Florida it was about 70! Boy could I go for that now.  Well I have a low battery, so I better end this now! Love to all my followers!

Time to Celebrate

Less than a week to Disney. I am so excited! I just can't wait! Especially with the blizzard we had today. Crazy! On Monday I had my chemo port removed. It had started to bug me. Felt like I wanted to rip it out. That started last week, but then had to have a root canal so the tooth pain made me forget the port pain. Now I just have a few stitches and a nice scar and going to have my root canal finished on Friday. Boy am I ever looking forward to going away!

I am really late!

But, Happy New Year anyway. I guess I shouldn't become a professional blog writer! Anyway, my New Year started out great. Just me and the boys. We had a lot of fun. Speaking of fun, the boys and I are going to Disney World in Feb. We are going for a week! I just decided that life is too short. I have heard about three people I know whose cancer has come back. That shit scares me! So life is too short, I am going to see Mickey! Finished Chemo a year ago, so it it time I celebrate.

I am just worried about my three furry babies. My dad and buddy Rich are going to be watching and taking care of them but they will have to sleep alone. Anyone want to sleep over? It is nice and warm and sometimes they even share the bed.

I must go now. I need to go look around my house to see what I can sell on ebay to raise some cash for my trip! It is amazing what people will buy.