Time just flies when life is back to normal

To anyone who just saw this blog for the first time, don't go to the beginning unless you have hours to spend reading! I was trying to write every few days while going through treatment so I could update my friends and family. Because I could not talk about it! Now I like to go back to read to remember what I went through.

Life itself is back to normal, but there is never a day when I don't think of cancer. Whether it is looking at one of my four scars, feeling a pain, or just thinking of my new support group friends, there is never a day when I don't think about it. Four scars, for a lumpectomy, yes, one for the lump, drain, lymph nodes and port. The port has been out for a few months now and funny my shoulder pain went away. After it heals, I am going to get a cool tattoo in it's place. Or near it cause I don't think they will go over a scar.

My life is wonderful. My boys are the most amazing thing ever. Dan grows taller and his voice gets deeper everyday. Joe drives all over and most days picks Dan up after school. I worry about Dan and those friends of Joe's who are girls, cause it seems that Dan has a thing for older women! Joe has a new girlfriend every few days! I feel old! On Monday, Joe is going to start training at Shoprite. Hopefully he will like this job. Now he needs money for gas  and cigarettes (let's not even go there) so there is some motivation.

I did go take a test to see if I carry the Braca (cancer) gene. I am just waiting for the results. If yes, they may encourage me to have my ovaries removed. Whatever!!! I firgured it would be good for the boys to know if their genes are bad, and what is another three hundred dollars out of my pocket. I don't think I will ever finish paying off these doctors, but what can I do about it, at least I am working and have insurance.

Work is work, it could be better, but then it could also be a lot worse. Maybe one day I can retire and then volunteer with animals! I love going to play with the cats on Tuesdays. Love my furry babies at home too. Just had to take Chip to the vet yesterday, more money I don't have! He is okay, had a problem with his anal gland! Crazy shit, I didn't even know there could be a problem!

Tonight we are going to dinner for Aunt Chubby's birthday, then back to my parents for cake. Love my family! I don't think there is any more for me to write..... so until next time.