Stuff

I made it to Daniel's game and it was COLD! Started off good, but went bad quickly. They lost 30 to 6. Dan said it is okay he had fun anyway. Nothing really bothers him. I need to learn more from him.

I have to go for my second Chemo treatment on Tuesday. I am finally starting to feel good and I have to start all over again. This can get out quickly. But I did go out for a little while today. My brother and the kids were over today and Kayla convinced me that we should go for pedicures. I am glad we did because my feet feel great now! It was good for me to go, because Mom, Dad and Anthony's were working way too much around my house and I was just getting in the way!

I did notice that my hair is getting thinner. I was just beginning to really like my short hair. Oh well, my wig and hats are waiting! Not sure I am going to like wearing that wig! On a positive note, it does look like my hair and winter is coming so now someone can wear those twenty something dollar "Element" hats that Daniel had to have when he was going through his skater phase!

Have to go out later today

Very important day, Dan is playing in his first middle school football game. It's at 4:30 so I am hoping to go for a few minutes and avoid people and their germs. He is so excited, got to wear his jersey to school which makes him a chick magnet. So he tells me. At 11 my baby wants to be a chick magnet! It's so cute, he got to choose his number and he picked the same one (63) that Joe had.

I was very busy shopping this morning. Which reminds me to call that damm disabilty carrier and find my missing checks. I was on some wig website and got two partial wigs to wear with hats. The way I figure it I will be bald by the 28th. Anyone want to come to my head shaving party? Wait seriously, maybe we chould make this a party?

I also ordered a sweatshirt and sweatpants. My outfit of choice these days. I better stop geting those catalogs!

It was very quiet here last night, both Joe and Sherry the dog went home. I really missed Sherry! No.... really I missed Joe too. Chip is very sad today. There is no one to bark with. The cats just won't listen to him.

Well it seems to be past my naptime. Hope everyone has a nice weekend.

So I did not kill him

Joe made it through the night and even apologized to me and helped straighten up a bit last night. I had to "sleep" on it to realize that he is just being Joe. He needs to justify that he is going home tonight. If he had a good time being here then it makes it harder to go home. If he hated it, and I am horrible mother he can justify going home because it makes the change easier. Gotta love that anxiety boy! I just forget sometimes!

ARRRGH!!!!!

Okay, Chemo is nothing compared to life with a teenager. Joe who usually lives with Kevin has been here for a week now. Kevin went to Ireland on the day I started Chemo (no comment). It has been a little rough for both Joe and I but I have managed to be the Cool Mom and let him go out a lot and even had everyone play Chauffeur for him.

Tonight I said I wanted him to eat dinner here (which Daniel cooked) and that he could not go hang out in town at 7:00 pm. Now I am the most horrible bitch that lives. He called me names I would never even consider calling my mother. Even if she were them. He thinks I am stupid! Something is going on (in town) and he is not going to be a part of it!

Mouth sores were nothing compared to this! The good thing is that Kevin is comming home late tonight so this is the last night Joe HAS to sleep here! Love him to death, but I do not have a problem with him living at Kevin's.

Doing Well but Tired

So they gave me three prescriptions for my mouth and it is doing much better. Now my problem is that I told the doctor I was not sleeping so she gave me Ambien. The one that sounds so wonderful in the commercials. Well I think I fell asleep at 11:30 and now I have been up since 4:00 am. I am just ready to crash now. I don't think I will be taking that again tonight!

Yeah... going to sleep. The View is on and those woman just make me nuts! They are talking about Madonna. I can't stand her either! Ohhh...I am crabby, I better sign off now!

More Issues :-(

Okay, so today I went for an unscheduled visit to the Onconology Center. I had this killer sore throat and now learn that it is Chemo mouth sores. I have four new perscriptions. Which I am waiting for my parents to come back from filling. Can't get good help these days!

They say my white blood cell counts are dangerously low. I have to stay away from everything and everybody. Also I have to follow this Chemo diet. Weird things, basically bland, cooked foods. I should feel better in a few days, probably just in time for the next chemo.

Oh... the help is here. Gotta go take my drugs.

Can't Sleep!

Crazy, It's 6:30 and I am so tired but can't sleep! I have been up for over an hour now. Maybe if I had some energy to move during the day I would be sleeping now. Even the animals are sleeping. But, I do think they have a schedule of my bed, cause every time I wake up there is a different one next to me.

Did I mention that my throat is so sore! Not enough water or ice pops around. I guess I will call the doctor later, but I hate even thinking of going there.

Boy am I being bitchy. The boys keep telling me that too. I'm sorry if I bummed you out. I may sleep soon, I took some kinda drug I have here. I think it was the anxiety one, hopefully not the nausea one. I did make it thruough the day yesterday with no drugs, except Tylenol.

Well I really have to try to sleep the boys will be up in five hours. No school today. Hopefully I find some energy to do something with them.